A Double Rainbow

I often read other mothers' blogs who have lost children at a young age.  I kept reading about rainbow babies and decided to look it up.  

I loved this description.  

"A rainbow baby is a miracle baby conceived after the loss of another child.  Rainbow babies are the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm.  When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with the aftermath.  What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and the clouds.  Storm clouds may still loom over but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy, and much needed hope."

I feel so blessed with two sweet rainbow babies!  We get a double rainbow.  My pregnancy has been tough but so worth it.  It has given our family hope and something amazing to look forward to.  I'm 31 weeks, so only a few more weeks to go (well . . . probably at least 7 or so!).  We now have such a different perspective of how precious life is that we try so hard to enjoy each day.

And yet- just like the description above, these precious rainbow babies don't take away our hurt or the pain we feel daily from missing our son.  I sometimes just wish I could grow him again in my belly.